mamaEnglish:
“I GAVE BIRTH TO A MONSTER!”… AND FELL ASLEEP.
She gave birth to me when she was 22, out of love and desire, not by chance. She taught me to read and write when I was 4 years old, to think for myself and be myself.
She taught me to ride a bike, so I followed her arduously, but persistently, down Kneza Miloša Street to the former “Jugobanka” near the “London”, to give away all her savings. Still, she did not teach me how to manage money – I took after her for being a big spender. Beside her, as a little girl, I learned to eat olives which I still adore, then shellfish, relished whitebait in the “Polet”, roamed the city … and listened to Tina Turner, watched loads of movies with her. She used to drink bitter coffee, so I never put sugar in mine. She used to buy me a bunch of books. Because of her, at the age of 8, I read everything that was written by Branko Ćopić, and by the age of 11 everything written by Agatha Christie…
She used to be an excellent driver and she used to swear while driving, just like me. She had large almond-shaped eyes, a small snub nose, just like me … and we were always joking because only my boobs weren’t like hers, but like dad’s. 🙂
We used to fight, but as a 40-year-old woman, I would jump into her bed and doze hugging with her …
She accepted our Maria wholeheartedly, because her mom died in childbirth, cherished her until she was one year old and was proud of her every concert, success and talent. She was helping her patients lovingly, with whom she has worked for over 25 years. Always smiling, witty, with crazy jokes that had seemed so charming …
Ten years ago, she was diagnosed with lupus. She did not pay attention to her health too much, she had other things to do …
She could not walk fast, she was driving her car less and less, and eventually just fell asleep. Today.
I love you, mom. I will always want to hug you and send a message with abbreviations where “Mama” is “Wawa” or exchange with you an MMS with photos in which we loll out..

Serbian:
“RODILA SAM ČUDOVIŠTE!”…I ZASPALA.
Rodila me je sa 22, iz ljubavi i želje, ne slučajno. Naučila me je da čitam i pišem sa 4 godine, da razmišljam svojom glavom i budem ja.
Naučila me je da vozim bicikl, pa sam je teškom mukom, ali uporno, pratila uz Kneza Miloša do tadašnje „Jugobanke“ kod „Londona“, da predam svoju ušteđevinu. Ipak, nije me naučila kako da raspolažem parama – na nju sam povukla „široku ruku“. Uz nju sam kao mala naučila da jedem masline koje i danas obožavam, školjke, uživala u giricama u „Poletu“, skitala po gradu…, slušala Tinu Tarner, gledala gomile filmova sa njom. Ona je pila gorku kafu, pa ni ja svoju nikad nisam šećerila. Kupovala mi je hrpe knjiga. Zbog nje sam sa 8 godina pročitala sve što je napisao Branko Ćopić, a do 11 sve od Agate Kristi…
Bila je odličan vozač i psovala je u saobraćaju, kao i ja. Imala je velike bademaste oči, mali prćasti nos, kao što imam i ja… i uvek smo se šalile zbog toga što jedino sise nemam na nju, nego na tatu. 🙂
Umele smo da se posvađamo, ali sam i sa 40 godina uskakala kod nje u krevet i dremala zagrljena sa njom…
Punim srcem je uzela našu Mariju, kojoj je mama umrla na porođaju, gajila je do njene prve godine i bila ponosna na svaki njen koncert, uspeh i talenat. Punim srcem je pomagala svojim pacijentima, sa kojima je radila više od 25 godina. Uvek nasmejana, duhovita, sa ludim forama koje su je činile toliko šarmantnom…
Pre desetak godina dijagnostikovali su joj lupus. Nije se obazirala previše na svoje zdravlje, imala je druga posla…
Više nije mogla brzo da hoda, sve manje je vozila auto, da bi na kraju samo zaspala. Danas.
Volim te, mama. I dalje ću hteti da te zagrlim i pošaljem poruku u skraćenicama gde je “Mama” – “Wawa” ili razmenim sa tobom MMS sa slikama na kojima se kezimo.
Samo jedna slika nikada neće biti kao pre. Ostali smo tata i ja da se svađamo, a tebe neće biti tu da digneš ruku za tajm-aut i kažeš “Rodila sam čudovište!”.
Valjda tako mora.
VtT

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